emotion

Im writing this post while lying in my bed. Clock is ticking and dawn is just about to come out. I feel uneasy that i can't even rest my brain for awhile. Exams coming up, my work is just far from finish line and minor problems somehow turns out bigger than it should be. In time like this i could only think that life is hard and tiring.

I once told, "you have to be nice so people can value your work." In some cases, it turns out to be true. People appreciated for what i've done nicely for them. Some didn't. Then i start to think, "being nice is tough, unless its worth it." I just found that some people, however you've done things for them or even sacrificing yourself before them, they will never respect or look into it because of their ego, selfishness, and pride. They are stuck in their own world by throwing emotions blindly. Those people aren't worth of nice treatment.

From now on, start appreciate yourself above everything or anyone. Even though your love one. They suppose to understand afterall.

What goes around comes around. Well said.

trip inappropriate

Went for a trip with my friends to suburban city and the weather was such a weirdo. Day one i was wearing lace shirt with trousers and im sweating like a pig. It was hot, humid, and rainy at the same time. This is what i wear in day two. Was hoping for a better weather but i woke up late! Shirt, shorts and bare-faced. Then, i thought it would be just as hot as the other day but im totally fooled! I was freezing brrrrrrr

forever 21

Im turning 21 today! happy birthday to me :D I feel extremely blessed and thankful for everyone who has been fulfilling my life in the past 20years with me, bearing sadness and happiness which i caused to them and for always being there to cheer to hold and even being my shelter when i needed one. My family my best friend and my loves, thank you for going through with me. I couldn't ask for anything better :)
Anyways, beside the bad thing that im going older, I am now proud to announce that im legally legal! *hiphiphooray*! Twenty-one isn't a bad thing though!
Here are some photos that i shoot with my friend back there when im still in jakarta. Gosh im missing home! Hope you like it as much as i do!

love bug

Winter is near the edge and im ready to welcoming spring. Its just about time to put in my shorts and t-shirts, and wrap my coat out of my closet! :)

365 wishes

Hi all! Its been a while since the last post and finally, here is the first post on my blog to gratefully start 2013. Happy belated Christmas and New year for you! :)

Talking about new year, I have always had a resolution in every each of the year and usually i start to make a new one in the early new year. When december comes, its time to fill the thick to my fulfilled wishes. I dont know if other people take this as a joke or just a simple hope for a year. For me, it kinda serious and it usually getting even tougher in the back months.
2012 for me was a great year. I've been through a good things with people i loved. I've achieve some of my goals and it feels relieved to know that you are (finally) know where you are good at and capable of doing something. Aside from the good deeds, i also had the downfall moment. I've been sick, and so many plans didn't work out. Plenty of chances blew away because i was so thoughtful and disrespectful at the same time. And these are problem that im going to solve this year (hopefully).
We, human are born in different aspects to fulfill each other needs. Some are good in physical thing, some have a genius brain, some have abundance talent on painting or singing and etc. If you still don't wandering on which part are you good in, don't break out and keep searching. Once you know the call of your life, don't miss the a single chance! Second chances are rarely come so make the most of the first one! :)






Sweater-Zara ; Coat-H&M ; Bag: Steve Madden

forestry

Went for a photo shoot back then with my friend and surprisingly the photographer was one of my good old friend. I didn't have time to prepare much since it was a last minute and also the first thing in the morning so, i grab some piles which was placed on the top of my closet with hopes it wasn't too cheesy lol. The photos turns out good (but my face looks all bloated!!) but i don't have the original copy. Hope this is just clear enough :D







shoes: Sam Edelman's Novaka heels ; yellow pastel top: Zara ; watch: Omega

seasons greeting

Winter. What's going through your mind when you hear that words? For me (which is not a big fan of winter things due to my personal experience) i'd like to say a long-hibernation-time-for-mind-and-soul! Maybe some of you will not expect to heard that but it really is! Windy breezy rainy weather are not really my best friends. I don't know if it is just me or anyone else but they always brings a gloomy notion and i need a break of it.
Anyway, enough with the prolog. Went to Hong Kong for a quick weekend shopping spree with my friends and Christmas is everywhere! I mean, every place we've been were decorated with Christmas theme and there's always a feeling of warmth whenever i put my eyes on them. It's like all your problems gone and suddenly changed to a joyful moment. Unfortunately, it just last for a night..

  morning face = bloated face 
found this cute huge-angel-winged-pig in front of K-11 art mall. simply adorable <3
  notice the different? i draw my brow and its kind of fail. lol
  Christmas decoration in Times Square made from Lego



enjoy the post and hope you have a great and joyful holiday season! xx

beach time

Looking back at these photos and realize how i miss summer so much. It doesn't mean like i love being tanned and sweaty all the time but, really? shorts and t-shirts are such a good companion :(
Speaking of weather, i have this ridiculous opinion about how it has (been) effected my (personal) life. Autumn for me always been the starter of everything bad. Problems out of nowhere, sudden self-deconstruction, and foolish act which brings me nightmare every time i think about it. And it keep going until winter comes and usually all thing just get even darker, or i call it as the darkest moment in my life. If other people are excited about what christmas will brings, neither do i. Actually im curious about what's next might be happen? *deepsigh*




top - pull n bear ; aviator: h&m 

daydreaming

Quick post to end this beautiful weekend!

forever 21 - sheer top ; zara - floral skirt ; mphosis - chain bracelet 

It was a love at the first time with the top when i saw it hang on the middle of the sale rack. It is sheer, light, airy, and it is embellished with those pretty little sparkling beads! I took it off from the hanger and straight away gone to the cashier because i dont wanna risk to lose in anywhere :D 

Anyway, this photo was taken weeks ago in front of the famous Eiffel Tower. Believe it? Fooled you :p actually this is the replica one which is located in Window of The World. Over there you could see most of world's great construction including the seven wonders and so many more. Will share the rest of the photo diary in the next post. 

Have a great (almost ending) weekend guys!

something new

Searching for the possible VPN connection is harder than picking a suit! I may sound so exaggerate but i really did struggle.
For those who live(d) in the country where everything is block by the government, i bet you are just as furious as i am. I've been back to China for weeks, and ever since that time i can't access so many web (google, wikipedia, youtube, facebook, twitter, blogger, etc) and i was annoyed much because i can't find any provider to get me some "freegate". Imagine yourself, trying to google something for your work but your screen say no, how ridiculous is that?? Luckily, my sister told me the cure of this madness and from now on, im back! :D
Enough with my complain, here is some photos that my friend took last holiday. It was actually meant to be a "single" photoshoot but accidentally both of me and okky brought our boyfriend so hansen suggest, why dont we take some couple shoot? At first, i wasn't sure because im not really into "couple" things but then i think why not? since we are all already here, lets make something new :D




in the single shoot im wearing plain tee and retro jacket from pull and bear; short denim pants from local market;  forever21 studded heels | in the couple shoot i change my shirt into denim shirt; random bangles from cotton on and mphosis; watch is omega. Photos by Try Hansen Thanks to him :)

ticking down

Have you ever feel like you are running out of time and you still have a lot of things to do? That is exactly what i feel right now. School is starting soon and I'm not ready for it! (probably never will :p)
This is some photo that my sister shoot few days ago and it actually was Eid Mubarak day! So i would like to say Happy (belated) Eid Mubarak for you guys whose celebrated it. (better late that never say, right?)

top and shorts by: evellyn christina, ysl arty ring, gold plated, pedder red wedges, louis vuitton vintage box bag

Back in time

I know, i've been neglected my blog for a pretty long time. Blame on me because i've been enjoying my summer holiday too much! Anyway, how is your holiday? Hope you are just as excited as i am :D
Since I'm back to Jakarta, I spent a lot of time with my friends though i have to aside this virtual land of mine. Now I'm back! I did some photoshoot here and ready to share with you guys. Here is one that my sister shoot in our garage. Sorry for the (not so good) background!

   

Wearing floral dress (i forgot where to buy it), and Novaka heels by Sam Edelman. Accessories comes from H&M and thrifted market.

More photos coming up! Gotta go grab some (very late) lunch! 

(ps: i also upload some photos on instagram and twitter! Follow me there: @sevvysamantha :D)